As I enter my 28th week of pregnancy, tons of memories flood into my mind of a little over two years ago when I experienced one of the scariest and yet most joyful times in my life. At this time in my pregnancy with Suzie, I noticed that she wasn't moving as much as I had become accustomed to. For two days I would try to get her to move and felt as though her movement was becoming less frequent. Looking back, I can see the Lord's hand in everything that happened those few weeks and months when Suzie was born. I wouldn't have gone in to the doctor unless my nurse had called me to give me some test results. Had I waited even a day, it would have been too late and we would have lost her. I had the most wonderful OB who was not only incredibly skilled, but also a strong believer who kept telling me, "We know Who's in control!" We were able to get into one of the best NICU's and stay right across the street. Suzie was given a 40% chance of surviving and we were told if she did make it, she would most likely be moderately to severely mentally and physically disabled. And just look at her now! What a blessing she is to us and we wouldn't trade all that we went through for anything. We have been blessed far more than we deserve and every day Suzie is a testimony of how merciful God is to us wretched sinners.
People ask me all the time if I'm scared about this pregnancy. The truth is, I can be tempted to worry sometimes. Who's to say that the Lord doesn't want me to go through something like this again? And yet, I know and have seen that when you encounter a trial that seems far too great for you to handle, God's grace is right there to see you through every moment. And so, whenever I am tempted to fear, I look at my Suzie and see God's grace overflowing. I remember how scary it was and how the Lord comforted me all the way. And I do pray everyday for the safety of Sawyer, knowing how the Lord loves Him far more than I ever could! I praise God for allowing Sawyer to be quite the mover so I can have that little bit of assurance that he's doing okay. If I were to encounter a day when his movements decreased significantly, it would certainly be scary! But what a blessing it is to know that we can trust in our Sovereign and kind God.
I thought I'd post this picture of what Suzie looked like the day she was born, since Sawyer is about that size right now, and I still have a whole trimester left! Suzie Lorraine; 7.18.08; 1 lb. 14 oz.; 13 1/4 inches
Well, I don't know where the time has gone. Thanksgiving came and went so quickly and we were so blessed to have our dear friends invite us over to their home for the holiday since it was our first Thanksgiving away from family. We were at their house from 10am to 8pm. I hope we didn't overstay our welcome! Suzie just loves the Eddins and will always recite all 7 of their names whenever we are on our way to their home. Here is a picture of her with two of their boys, Danny and Judson:
I said I would never get a fake tree, but some friends had an extra one that they gave us and I gotta admit, I love it! No mess, no hassle with the lights, no dead needles, no holes. Why didn't I convert sooner? We don't have a fireplace so we had to improvise with the stockings:) Our traditional Thanksgiving family picture. It's amazing to get one with no one's eyes closed! Here's one of my favorite's of Suzie-Q. And one more fun one...with Suzie's bedhead:) We are doing great here. I'm 25 weeks now and feel more pregnant than I ever did with Suzie. I'm only three weeks away from where I was when I had her! That is just crazy. Kyle wanted to stick with the "S" names so we've decided to name him Sawyer. Little Sawyer is quite the mover which is definitely the best thing about pregnancy. Suzie's doing great and is officially doing therapy without mom around. I watch from the parent room and she is just thriving. She is walking more and more, probably 5-10 steps 6-8 times a day on her own. She does better at therapy. She is talking up a storm, knows all her shapes and numbers from 1 to about 13 and is even getting pretty close to knowing the whole alphabet (in the song, not by seeing the letters).
Since this really is my online scrapbook and the closest thing I have to a baby book for Suzie, I wanted to record some of the cute things she has been saying lately so I'll remember them years from now. Here are a few phrases she says regularly in her sweet little voice: "Hi Mommy! Good morning to you!" "Daddy!!! Suzie wants you!!" "I get it for you." "Hey! What you doing?" "How are you?" Then when you ask her how she is she'll respond with, "Pretty good." "I hurt. Kisses make it better." "Twenty-two hours." (No idea where this comes from but she says it a lot!) "Where are we?" She says this whenever we get really close to home and she wants you to ask her the same question back. Then she'll say, "Home!" "Night, night darling." "Bye sugar!" She says this to her therapist Pam when she's leaving. If you go into the bathroom she'll say, "I go potty too!" Although she's not really close to actually using the potty:) There are so many other funny little things she says, but that's all I can think of for now.
Thanks for continuing to follow us here on the blog. Hope you all have a Merry Christmas!
Kyle and I were married on November 11, 2006. Our precious daughter Suzie Lorraine was born on July 18, 2008, three months before her due date. We have seen God's love so much, especially these past several months. We praise Him for all His many gifts, but most of all for sending His Son to die for our sins.